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A stupid man who had the love of the most beautiful woman and blew it. But who wants to make good. This is my very public apology to her, her family and her friends. I wasn't a cheater or wife beater, but what I did do was take her love for granted and abuse the privilege of being her partner. I was immature and selfish. I do not blame her for wanting away. But I want her back. I love her so much and want nobody else. Truly. She is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am ready for a grown up relationship. I am ready to take responsibility for being a father and partner. I have grown up. The road will be long and quite probably impassable. But a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. If only he'd done it years ago!!

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

Humble

hum·ble

1. not proud or arrogant; modest: to be humble although successful.
2. having a feeling of insignificance, inferiority, subservience, etc.: In the presence of so many world-famous writers I felt very humble.
3. low in rank, importance, status, quality, etc.; lowly: of humble origin; a humble home.
4. courteously respectful: In my humble opinion you are wrong.


I was often less than humble during the course of my relationship.  Disrespectful might be another way of putting it.  Indeed that is probably the thing I am most ashamed of - the lack of respect I often showed Becky.  I want to put on public record how much I do respect her.  As a woman, as a mother and as a teacher.  So committed to her vocation.  I have in the past cited her job as a primary school teacher as being a reason for our drifting apart.  That was wrong.  I should have offered greater support seeing the amount of work that she put into her job.  And not taken the selfish standpoint of only seeing it from the perspective of how it affected me.  She was exhausted.  But all I could do was moan about it.  Instead of being more understanding and supportive.  Giving her more hugs.  Buying her some little treats.  I was such an unthinking pig :-(

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