Mission impossible??

Hello thanks for coming by.  

What you'll read here are the thoughts of a man desperate to right the wrongs that have cost him his relationship.  That have destroyed the love given to him by a woman who gave him chance after chance to grow up, and come join the party.

This will be a place of cathartic outpouring, designed to move me forward emotionally and psychologically.  Where the ultimate would be to convince my now ex partner of my sincerity in wanting to spend the rest of my life with her and our two children.  Convince her that I have finally laid my most destructive of demons to rest.  Convince her that I now understand and more importantly feel what love is.

It is as if a dam has burst inside of me.  Feelings, emotions and a reality held in check for too many years have been set free.  I now understand with such clarity what it was that was lacking on my part in that previous life.  I took her love for granted.  Indeed I barely understood what love was.  But with an overwhelming intensity do I now know what it is.  It is all you need.  Wow!

Too soon are we dust.  We are indeed a long time dead.  Therefore I am utterly compelled to write this blog.  Humbly remembering however, that as the Rolling Stones said "you can't always get what you want".  

But hoping, hoping, hoping.