All Apologies

One of the big things in the breakdown of our relationship was my reluctance to engage fully with Becky's friends and family. 

Basically my social skills - as with so many people - were built upon the foundation of alcohol.  Then around ten years ago I was forced to give up alcohol for health reasons.  And since that time I've come to find large gatherings - weddings, christenings and large family do's - almost impossible to handle.  I now realise how pathetic that was.

These were the people that Becky loved, and who loved Becky, and I should, really should have made more effort.  Given my chance again I would be there by her side every time.  My discomfort is immaterial.  I am there with the woman I love.  To be by her side.  Proud.

I wish to apologise wholeheartedly, not only to Becky, but to her family - especially her Mum, Dad, Stepdad, Stepmum and brother - for my often distant, sometimes rude attitude, when in their company.  I am deeply ashamed and somewhat bemused at the way I acted.  My priorities were all out of whack, and the fact of the matter was I could not face up to my own inadequacies.  I couldn't handle it, but could never admit to that fact.

To Becky's friends - Sanae, Beth, Marie, Lyndsey, Claire, Roxy and there husbands and partners, I offer my sincere apologies and regret at having missed out on getting to know you all.  Again it is a case of being far more about me than it ever was about you. 

I am sorry.